i'm sorry but i gotta write in Bahasa because i need to express my feeling freely.

aku capek.
aku ingin menyerah.
aku ingin berhenti saja.
aku lelah, hati ini lelah.
hati ini ingin berhenti.
melihat kau tersenyum saja sakit.
senyumnya bukan untukku.
kenyataan pahit.
terulang lagi dan lagi dan lagi.
sampai kapan?
makanya aku ingin berhenti saja.
cari lain?
kamu pikir gampang?
lebih baik diam saja.
atau mencoba pura-pura sibuk akan hal lain saja?
mengacuhkanmu? SUSAH!
di saat aku diam, kamu datang.
maunya apa sih?
sudah cukup.
berhenti saja.
iya, aku menyerah. LALU KENAPA?
berhenti sebelum berperang toh bukan pengecut juga.
tidak, aku tidak benci.
hanya lelah.
ingin aku menunggumu.
menunggu sampai kamu berpaling.
aku tidak bisa menungggu selamanya kan?
cukuplah, sampai sini saja.


random things about me

1. i love pink. since i was a child, pink always become my favourite colour.. it's girly yet sexy.

2. i love horror comics. yes, just for your information i have more than 100 comic books of horror in my bookshelf. I've been collecting it since i was in the elementary. it's fun to read it when I'm going to bed, or even in the bathroom. :D

3. I'm kinda a spoiled girl. but still in a tolerance way. and I become more spoiled if I'm outside the house (between my friends).

4. i love English. that's why I'm taking the English literature and i hope someday i could be a great writer like Edgar Allen Poe. uyeaaahh!

5. i prefer to be starving than to be sleepy. simple, because my attitude is better if I'm in the starving condition. he. oh, and i become more rebel and annoying if I'm in sleepy condition.

6. I'm a delay person. hahah, why? because i like to delay everything. i like to delay to do my homework. i like to delay to go to bath. i like to delay to eat. but i never delay to sleep and snacking.. :)

7. i can be sleepy even i already sleep for 7 hours and take a nap for 5 hours. :)

8. i prefer dark chocolate than milk and white chocolate.

9. i LOVE my mother's homemade chocolate cake. :9

10. i prefer to wear tank top and boxer/shorts than pajamas.

11. i passed my free-classes day by watching Korean and Japanese drama. and i watch it with my dorm room too.

12. i love number 2. i don't know why but i think number two is so feminine.

13. thirteen is not an unlucky number for me. i never believe in such superstition.

14. i love doing art. dancing, singing, acting, ANYTHING! but painting... ~__~

15. i only have 2 kinds of taste. delicious and very delicious. so if i say the food is not delicious, it means it isn't able to be eaten.. LOL

16. i collect unique pen. you know, the kind of pen that has fur on it, or has a light..

17. i love chocolate. hot chocolate, chocolate bars, chocolate milk, chocolate bread. CHOCOLATE!

18. I'm easy to be pleased. give me a balloon and I'll stop crying.

19. i prefer to be given a balloon or show me a fireworks than to be given a bouquet of flower.

20. I'm a childish young-adult. so what? I'm still keeping my barbie dolls..


these are my girl friends in bandung. they made this video in 2009 if i'm not mistaken. i'm so PROUD of them! LOL..



july, please be nice to me.

hello again all. and I just realize that it's July already and June is gone already too. what a fast year i guess.

1. I'm joining the disciplinary squad in my faculty for the freshmen orientation event in the next 2 weeks. i hope i'll be strong enough and fight till the end. GO FIGHT WIN, TIMDIS!

2. I'm going to Singapore next week! yeah! and I'm so excited for that. :)) hope I'll have a safe trip and really have fun!


so tragic. :((

that's all I can say for today. God bless everyone.



some updates. ♥

okay, so here we go. here are some updates from me..

1. I'm going to move out from my current shared-house. it's simply because I'm not feeling comfortable anymore. it's not because the people (my friends as i can say), but because the facilities and especially THE OWNER. :(( so I'm going to move to the different area named Sayang and i found a lovely place "Puri Paramitha". The room rate is much higher than before. It costs 7 million per year, but it's worth it. I get a WI-FI connection and water heater. nice, huh? I'll move in the middle of July. hope this will bring me another happiness. The sad thing is I have to separated from my other friends. They move too but to the other shared-house. But we can still meet each other at campus or we could just visiting each other. :))

left to right. desi, ka bella, aya, bunga, me, naila, puti, garma, a friend of garma :D.

2. I'm done with my final exam in this second semester. YEAAAAAHH!!! well, I'm not sure about the whole score, but I already got one "A" in laboratory work. All I can say is THANK YOU, MISS SALLY ANDIKA PUTRI for all your kindness. :) I LOVE YOU!! so I need to expect more for the other subject. maybe straight A? hahahahaa. but who knows? Cause I really need those "A"s to make my GPA stable or ever better. please, oh my lecturers, be nice to me. :)

miss Sally Andika Putri

3. so, i gotta crush with this boy. he's not handsome or cute or athletic. He's just adorable and such a gentleman. but I'm not sure about our future. maybe just another lovely friendship. dammit. :((

4. I wanna admit that I'm kinda a fashionista nowadays. I have to be well-dressed when I go to campus or anywhere. sometimes it annoyed me but I feel satisfied when people say that I'm pretty or something like that. I know I'm such a brat. =__="

at campus, after my birthday. :)

aaaannd.. as usually, I'll put my favourite music video. It's BONAMANA by SUPER JUNIOR. :))

have a blasting day, everyone!



matcha ice cream

i want this ice cream. i want it right now!!! :)))



i mis the blogging thing

actually i really miss to write something on my blog, but unfortunately i couldn't because I DON'T HAVE ANY INTERNET CONNECTION in my shared house in Jatinangor, so i couldn't post some write freely. :(

what i want to write is already gone, so I'm not in the mood anymore.
so now I'm just going to post a video, Run Devil Run covered by Jennifer Chung. enjoy!



a hug

i just want a hug right now. from my best friends. i don't know why, maybe i become a little bit sentimental because of my illness. i want a hug, a big warm hug. :(


saya kangen kamu.

saya kangen kamu

i miss you

보고 싶어요 (bogoshipoyo)

君がいないので寂しい (kimi ga inai node sabishii)

Mi manchi

Eu sinto sua falta

Tu me manques

Ik mis je

Jag saknar dig

te echo tanto de menos

the point is: i just want to see you. :(


i'm tired of being alone.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here oh yeah

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

love song for no one - john mayer


great things i get.

helooooo people!

oh, before i start i wanna wish u all MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!! let us hope we all gonna have a great and fun year. :)

so, during my christmas holiday, i spent my day in Jakarta. the amazing thing is I GET SO MANY THINGS THAT I WANT!!!!


i get Super Junior The 1st Asia Tour CD!!! It's from my best friend, Thiya. She got that album from Singapore. UUuuuuuh, I'm so happy!!! Love you thiyaaa.. :))


NEW PRINGLES!! new flavor, it's Grilled Shrimp. And it's fantasticious!! the most important is: IT'S PINK!!!!!! hahahah.


i bought this soap. can you read what this soap made of? BLUEBERRY! yes it is, baby. my favorite fruit on earth. the smell also can take me to the heaven. :)) ahhh.. so soothing.

the last but not least:

it's my new pet and his name is BLUEBERRY!!! yes, blueberry. just like my favorite fruit. :)
he's so cute till i want to grab him all the time. but after this holiday I have to leave him at my house, Jakarta. huks. I'll leave him so I can concentrate for my final exam. I LOVE YOU, BLUBE!!

and song of the day: